Friday, 31 October 2008

Well. It's happening

I'm going to lose my job, probably in the next few weeks.

So now I have to find a new one, and work out whether we can still go on our trip at the end of November. If I lose my job before we go I can claim off my travel insurance, but if its afterwards, or if I leave first, we wont get our money back, so will probably be going anyway.

The hardest part, that is really killing me, is that I will have to at least postpone the DE IVF. There is just no way we can have the money sorted in time now, and if I am in a new job, I dont feel I will have been there long enough to go on maternity leave.

Its just another road block on the path for us.

I have to say that I am starting to wonder why this keeps happening to us. Is it some sort of punishment for something, or is it Gods way of telling us that children are just not in our future? I'm finding it really hard to work this out in my head, and I dont really know what to think or how to work it out. I dont know what to do next.


Smiling said...

Just wanted to say that I'm thinking of you... DE is a heap of money (I'm saving up for it too) and DE plus redundancy is a really tough set of cards to draw. Hope it gets easier soon... take care

battynurse said...

I'm sorry. It always seems like things such as this happen at the worst possible times. I hope that things work themselves out somehow over the coming months.

Lassie said...

I found your through Lost and Found and wanted to let you know I'm sorry that you're facing such a difficult time. I know how difficult it is to decide on next steps during infertility, then to compound the stress with delays and financial troubles makes things almost unbearable. (I also have POF and almost did a DE cycle, but chose to go the adoption route instead.)

Keeping you in my thoughts

I Believe in Miracles said...

Oh no!! I'm so sorry. Ugh. No words.
***BIG HUG***